Faithfully Fighting

Friday Morning

lynnwv | January 25, 2008 11:26

A lot has happened in the couple of days since I have written.  Let’s start with an important item.  I got my bed on Tuesday and it is fantastic!  The really hilarious thing is I have gotten more comments on the new bed than any other thing so far.  I love you guys, you get me!  Even Katie is really excited about the bed, I told her she could sleep with me tonight and this morning before school that’s all she could talk about!

 

The other important item is I have finally been able to reach out and grab God’s comforting hand.  I’m not sure if it happened when I was on my knees Weds morning before work, or before that, but sometime around then I was able to finally open my heart and let my fear be lifted by the Lord.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I still have my moments.  But I don’t feel like a big wobbly bowl of Jell-O anymore.  Most of the time I can laugh and feel joy, and rejoice, without cold fear rising in my stomach.  I am so blessed to have a patient and loving Lord who waits for me.

 

The coolest things have been blessing me.  At work yesterday, my good friend took me to lunch, and then my entire group of co-workers had cake and ice cream to send me off with good wishes and a threatening tease to return in March.  I had to fight tears at their caring generosity.  EVERYONE from everywhere is volunteering to help me if I need them and I know they really mean it (and don’t think I won’t be calling, you guys!!).  My dear friend is arranging meals for when I get home.  My cousin wants to knit chemo caps, not just for me, but for the oncology center where I’m going to be going.  Who am I to be so blessed.  Pete always says that if you don’t let people help you when you need it then you are taking away their blessing from God.  I cannot imagine that anyone is as blessed as I am at this moment in my life.

 

Today I went for pre-op and I’m all signed up for my surgery on Tuesday.  I’ve got my magical, mystical green soapy stuff to scrub with for two days, I’ve said my name, birth date and address at least 30 times, blood has been drawn, chest x-ray’s have been taken, and I’ve got a sign up sheet for a pager for my waiting room waitees.  I’m going to try and talk Pete into blogging for me for the couple of weeks I’m not able to type or write.  I’m hoping to be home this time next week, but no promises on when I’ll be touching base.

 

Thank you so much for your prayers.  I know that is one of the reasons my fears have settled.  I can actually feel you guys lifting me up to the Lord.  I will boldly ask that you keep up the good work!

 J 

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