Faithfully Fighting

Chemo is a Comin'

lynnwv | February 26, 2008 12:28

Today was Oncology Day!  It’s a big day for me that I had huge mixed emotions about.  Part of me wanted to get it over with, but most of me could have waited a year, or two, or never to go.  Not that I mind my oncologist.  He is a very, thorough, thoughtful, informative fellow.  He gives me tons of information and even smiles from time to time.  The little surprise I had was that after he gave me all the information he said “Are you ready to start today?".  I quickly answered “NO”.  He was going to start treatment today.  I was not prepared for that.  I was ready to bolt out the door and he said he would reschedule, but I had to start next week.

 

So starting next Thursday March 6th at 1:00 this is my chemo schedule:

 

I have 4 cycles of Adriamycin and Cytoxan, one every 3 weeks

 

After that I have 12 cycles of Taxol and Herceptin, one every week

 

Then I have Herceptin alone once every 3 weeks for a year

 

Seems my cancer was HER-2 Positive which is why they have to do the additional Herceptin for a year.  That pathology thing signals an “aggressiveness” that has to be taken down (unfortunately I’m along for the ride).

 

The doctor showed me the treatment room (the chairs look very comfortable).  He said the first treatment would last around 3 hours, but if everything goes good they may get shorter after that. 

 

Most of you know I’m a big thinker and planner, but in this case I cannot even begin to think about this process.  Every time I go there in my head it starts to hurt, my heart starts to pound, and I get that flight or fight instinct.  I want to run for the hills or hit something really hard. 

 

The Lord allows us to have journeys in our lives that we are sure we cannot travel through.  They help us grow in Him, they help us lean on Him, and they help us become better servants for His service.  You all know what I’m talking about, we’ve seen people (some of you are those people) that have traveled those journeys and become great people for the Lord.  I have never thought of myself as one of those people.  I’m a cruiser, one of those people who watch and observe and take it all in, hopefully learning something along the way.  Well I’ve learned a lot about the Lord over the last 2-1/2 years.  I’ve learned He is faithful, and He blesses us when we don’t deserve it.  Mostly I have learned that when we are in our deepest, darkest places we are not alone.  It’s still not easy sometimes, but through His strength we are strong.  In His hands we are comforted. No matter how this goes, or how hard this journey turns out to be, please help me remember that Great is His faithfulness.

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