Faithfully Fighting

It’s been an interesting week.  Well, maybe not that interesting, but eventful.  After all the excitement of Sunday night and Monday I awoke Tuesday morning at 2:30 a.m. to severe pain.  I guess the steroids had worn off and the chemo had kicked in.  So on a day I had expected to head to work I was pretty much bed ridden (or couch stuck) with muscle cramps all over my body.  I was selfishly angry, because I’d thought I missed the bad side effects and was sailing through, but they just delayed a few days longer than I thought.  So, I’m ashamed to say, I sat home feeling sorry for myself. 

I was able to get to work Thursday and Friday 1/2 days.  We also had a small birthday party for Katie last night.  It was lots of fun and I was worn out so got a GREAT nights sleep. 

This morning has been beautiful.  I don’t know how to explain it because the same thing happened after my first chemo treatment.  When I woke this morning (I’ve always woken up way too early around 6:30 this morning), hearing the birds singing outside, and seeing just a touch of sun coming in, I felt joyful.  I’m just a little achy, but it is as if a cloud lifts off me shouting “Hey look at me!!  I’m alive and stronger and I can do this!!”   I’ve spent the morning making breakfast for Katie and me, and sitting on the back deck with a cup of tea and a good book (I did start some laundry too).  I’ve been enjoying the quiet morning and feeling great joy at just taking it all in.  I’ve let Katie lounge around in her PJs until now (almost 9:30 a.m.).  She has a 3 hour rehearsal for her dance recital this afternoon, so I’m letting her goof off this morning before we have to pull her into those tights and bun. 

You remember them right, the Saturday mornings, with nothing to do but celebrate nothing to do.  Read the paper, have a second cup of coffee, think about the days duties (gardening, garage cleaning, etc), enjoy a big breakfast, or just enjoy the company of your family.  These are the moments I get the most pleasure from anymore.  It’s as if the pain and trial of treatments make these mundane moments so much more precious.

I know I’m going on and on about nothing, but it seems really important to my heart.  Have a WONDERFUL Saturday and a wonderful week!!

p.s.  I changed some of the pictures on the picture link download.  Some cute ones of Katie and Ella.

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