Faithfully Fighting

I promised to write about the surgery and trip to UVA.  It was, surprisingly, a pretty positive experience.

We went down on Weds 10/15 for the pre-op testing and to see the surgeon.  It was a beautiful day, sun shining in the 70s  and I kept thinking that this surgery was a ridiculous idea.  I felt better than I had in months, what am I thinking.  Anyway we saw the doctor, a very gentle man who explained to me, once again very patiently, why the surgery was necessary. 

After the doctor’s appointment Pete and I asked the doctor where we should go for a nice supper.  He suggested the “Downtown Mall”.  So after all the tests at the hospital we headed off to what turned out to be similar to Winchester’s Old Town just bigger.  We had a lovely time walking around, eating dinner and then trying the authentic gelato.  Pete said it reminded him of Rome, and I wished we were there.  It was a lovely evening.

On Friday morning the weather matched my mood perfectly.  It was raining cats and dogs as I boarded the bus from the hospitality house to the hospital at 8:00 in the morning.  They had told me that I had to be at the surgical waiting room at 8:30 am. The surgical waiting room is the size of a ball room in a hotel, and it was packed with people. It was mind boggling how many surgeries they were doing on that one day.  After an interminable hour wait they called my name and Pete accompanied me up to the 2^nd floor surgical prep area.  This is where things started moving.  In my previous surgeries, earlier this year, this prep stuff seemed to take forever, but at UVA everything went into high gear.  I barely had time to go to the bathroom again and they were putting the funny hat on me and I’d seen at least 3 doctors (anesthesiologist, surgical residents, etc)  Next thing I know I’m ready to go, Pete prayed with me and kissed me goodbye, and I’m rolling down the hall.  This may be blurred by the fact that as soon as I signed my anesthesia paperwork they gave me the happy medicine.  I’ve never gotten it so quickly before and may I say I recommend this procedure.  Just a personal preference, but it eliminates all those questions and fears and life is a little easier as you face very scary stuff.  I used to be opposed to all that stuff, but as things pile up in life I don’t think there is anything wrong with professionally medical administered calming medicine.  I remember someone saying “Ok, Lynn we’re going to put you to sleep now.”  I said a quick prayer in my head for the surgeons (there were at least 15 people in the room at this point-who knew who was who!).  The next thing I knew I heard a voice saying “Hey Lynn, you did great, we are going to take you to your room.”  The clock on the wall said 3:45.  Wow, what a way to loose a day!  I always love it when they say “you did great” after surgery.  I want to say, ‘yes, I am an expert at laying still in a drug induced slumber, I’ve spent years perfecting my technique’. 

I knew it was good news when my Mom, Dad and Pete all came into the room with big smiles on their faces.  Now, I had already asked the recovery room crowd if I had a colostomy bag and they had smiled and said no you don’t.  So, I knew that the colon must not have been badly damaged.  My Mom leaned over my bed and told me that the doctor had come down to talk to them for quite and while and he was very pleased that the mass in the fallopian tube had been smaller than they had thought, that the tube had actually folded over the area and that had made it look bigger on the CT than it actually was.  The power of prayer is amazing!!  God is so good!!  Soon after that my wonderful surgeon came in to see me.  He told me he had done the full hysterectomy and there had only been a small attachment of the tube to the colon and he was able to separate that without any problems.  He also said that he’d taken samples of the fat around the stomach where cancer likes to hide, just to make sure there wasn’t any hiding there.  He told me he’d be off over the weekend, but the head of the department would be checking on me and he’d see me on Monday. 

Of course I woke up Saturday feeling pretty beat up.  Well, I didn’t exactly wake up, I was kind of up and down, up and down, because it was the nosiest night I’ve ever spent in a hospital.  There must have been a new doctor standing at my bed every 3 hours.  At 6:00 am a very young man came in and introduced himself.  He said he was a medical student and asked if he could ask me a few questions. Apparently this was the morning ritual.  The medical student wakes you, checks all important items over the last 24 hours, then about 45 minutes later one or two Residents will fly into the room separately ask you, pretty much, the same questions then disappear.  An hour after that a crowd of folks (some of the same Residents and the medical student in the rear) come bustling into the room.  I’m introduced to the “fellow” of the gynecological surgical department, who smiles brightly and apparently is the speaker for the group.  He asks me all the same  questions again and then tells me that I’ll get my little helper (catheter) removed this morning and will be able to walk to the bathroom, but no running the halls (titter of laughter from the group) my body needs to rest to heal.  I nod my head like a faithful patient bobble head and wonder how these children see me.  Am I their mother figure looking brave who they can’t wait to see up and around, am I a number on a chart full of surgery jargon and medical mumbo jumbo, or am the old lady whose fighting for her life come to be saved by them?  I ask if I can start drinking water and they agree with a big smile and nod.  I realize it’s probably the latter, what power they must feel.

Apparently I did very well. As Saturday passed I was determined (as usual) to get out of the hospital as quickly as possible. By the end of the day I was getting out of bed alone (very, very slowly) and had walked the hall once, with help.  Sunday morning the same young doctor ritual happened and my keepers were overwhelmingly pleased with my progress.  Dr. Fellow mentioned that if I didn’t live so far away he might even consider sending me home.  I wasn’t sure how my surgeon would feel about that, even though I kind of like the idea.  My nurse (an angel from God), named Bridget, seemed to agree.  She and I hit it off right away.  I didn’t ask too much of her (I’ve found in the past if you let them do their job they are much friendlier) and she went above and beyond everything I could have every wanted.  I really believe she was sent to me as a gift.  She also knew my doctor very well and made suggestions that he would like, walking once up the hall on Saturday, but not too much.  Drinking lots of water, sitting in the chair as long as I felt strong, taking my pain medicine (once my button was removed Sunday afternoon) if I had any pain (apparently my doctor doesn’t like his patients to ‘tough it out’, he thinks we heal better if we can be as pain free as possible).    She thought Sunday was too early to go home.

Later in the morning Dr. fellow returned with the head of the entire department.  Now I expected him to be in and out in 5 minutes (after all he had every student in the department checking the same questions and looking at my ver long belly cut) and being stuffy, head doctorish.  I was very wrong. He sat on my bed and we had a pleasant talk (thank you pain medicine).  As he was getting ready to leave I commented on how thoughtful everyone had been and he said something I don't think I'll ever forget.  He said he often gets asked why he does oncology work, people comment that it must be so depressing.  He said he tells them that some doctors can go for weeks without seeing someone that is really sick, or really needs help, but in his field he has the opportunity to help people every day.  Sometimes he can make them all better and sometimes he can only help them live longer with less pain, but in all cases there is something he can do.  It makes him feel like he is doing something good and that is what he got into the business of healing to do.  I can’t get over how that makes me feel, it is wonderful that this man instructs future oncology doctors how to treat women. 

My surgeon came in early on Monday (after the usually parade of student/doctors) and was pleased with me.  He really is a lovely man.  I have a soft spot for gentle men and he is one.  He was happy to send me home, but told me not to do too much.  By the time Mom and Dad and Pete got there at 10:00  I was ready to go.  It was a bit of a long ride, even on my Vicoden, but my bed never felt so good.

I feel really blessed.  The Lord’s presence was around me the entire time(as always) and I accepted His embrace.  I cannot express the gifts I have received.  Thank you for your prayers.  I love you all.

Hi everyone, just thought I'd drop a quick note.  I had my surgery last Friday and things went better than everyone expected.  The mass was smaller than expected and there was just a small attachment to the colon, no dissection was required.  I got to come home yesterday-10/20 (2 days earlier than the earliest expected date).  The head of the genecology oncology department kept calling me the Wonder from Winchester because I was recovering so well.  I am in pain, but am taking good drugs that help a lot.  I am doing nothing right now except resting. 

The Sunday school class is bringing me meals through the weekend.  Pete did my laundry yesterday and I’m letting my Dad feed the cats.   I feel truly blessed.

 Being at the University Hospital is very different than being at Winchester Medical Center.  The care is still excellent, but I have never seen so many doctors, every day, in my life.  I'll write a longer blog about some of the silly stuff that happened in a week or so, when I have the energy.

Thank you so much for your prayers!  The Lord has been so good to me!

Love, Lynn

This will be my last post before my surgery.  I'll be heading down to Charlottesville, VA to the University of Virginia Medical Center on Weds, 10/15, for pre-op.  Then on Friday I'll have my surgery.  They said I'd be in the hospital 5-8 days so I should be home by 10/23, but I wouldn't look for a new post until about a week after that, if I were you.

Strangely I'm not really nervous, yet.  I'm sure I'll get more anxious as Friday gets closer.  But it's not like it was the first big surgery back in February where I was terrified for the entire week before.  I have much more peace this time.  Don't get me wrong, I'd still like to call the whole thing off, but I know I can't.  I'd like to think that the peace is from my growing relationship with the Lord, but it may also be because this is the 4th surgery I've had this year.  Just another stepping stone of my journey.  I guess that's how the Lord works, he strengthens you as you walk along His path for your life.  Each step we take is another weight we learn to hand over to Him and another lesson in prayer and humility.  What an honor to be his child and have those lessons individually handed to me while he stands close.

Well, I've cleaned the house (hate coming home to a dirty house), emptied the fridge (the freezer is full though), Patrick is feeding the cats, and I packed almost everything I hope I need.  I kissed my big girl and grandbaby yesterday, and am taking Kathryn to drama class and dinner tonight before she goes to her Dad's.  I think I'm ready to battle another alligator (that's my advanced breast cancer support group's code word for our tangles with all the different medical chores we face).

May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father or our Lord Jesus Christ.  Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God.  Romans 15:5-7

Love you all,

Lynn

Well here we are again.  I’m praying everyone is doing well.

I’ve had a busy couple of weeks.  Had my colonoscopy at UVA on Thursday 9/26, everything seemed fine with that.  Had my biopsy on the hard nodes under my arm on Friday 9/27 and then met with my oncologist on Monday 9/29 and had Herceptin treatment.  Found out that the biopsy were positive lymph nodes of cancer.  The doctor seems to think it was an area that was probably there before treatment and is now getting active.  The question is, does that mean the Herceptin isn’t working to keep the cancer from growing, as it has appeared to be working the liver spots, or is this some kind of area that is just showing up and won’t grow any bigger??  My medical oncologist sent me to see my radiology oncologist to see if we can radiate the nodes.  I saw the radiology oncologist Friday 10/3.  This is the same doctor that had treated me in 2006.  He isn’t sure we can radiate the area because it is extremely close to the area radiated before.  Something about damaging (killing) the skin if you radiate more than once.  Anyway, I have a CT scan scheduled for Monday 10/6, to see if the nodes are auxilary nodes (which means the cancer could travel to other organs in my body if they get aggressive).  They aren’t going to do anything until after the UVA surgery anyway.

The “big” surgery is still scheduled for 10/17.  I was trying to talk my oncologist out of it, because I’ve been feeling really good, physically and hated the thought of being cut and weak and all.  But after those positive nodes there isn’t even a question.  Seems he’s probably going to have to “start some aggressive treatment” after I’m healed up.  I’m not sure what that means except I’m sure I won’t feel as good as I do right now.

I’m emotionally wiped out.  I just am refusing to think about all this stuff the rest of the weekend.  I’m taking Katie to the Autumn Conservation Festival of the Smithsonian’s National Zoo today!  I’m really looking forward to it.  We need to do something fun before I get laid up again.

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