Faithfully Fighting

Merry Christmas

lynnwv | December 13, 2008 12:37

Wow, it’s been 4 weeks since I’ve written.  I wonder if you’ve given up on me.  Isn’t it amazing that when things are rolling along we forget to:

  • Praise God for the every day blessings
  • Thank our friends and loved ones for their prayers and thoughts
 

I hope you don’t think I have forgotten you at all.  I thank the Lord every day for the blessing of your prayers in my life and I pray for you guys too. 

 

It has been busy month.  I’ve had weekly treatments of Navelbine and Herceptin without too much problem or fanfare.  I do get a bit nauseous for about 3 days after treatment, but nothing that a little rest and a pill or two can’t handle.  Other than that I’ve been a bit tired.  Compared to the taxotere chemo it is much, much better. 

 

I did have minor set back this week.  For no known reason I started in really bad pain in my lower back and abdomen on Tues afternoon.  It kind of faded on Weds morning and I went to work where it hit me again.  It was pretty painful, so I went home where it got worse and worse.  I was scheduled to see the doctor on Thurs, but ended up calling in Weds evening.  In retrospect I should have just taken a Vicoden and rode it out, but I was afraid it was the diverticulitus again so I called.  After seeing the doctor and going through a bunch of tests (I missed treatment Thurs because of the pain) the pain got better on its own (Praise the Lord).  The doctor called Saturday to tell me that the CT didn’t show any blockage or diverticulitus, so now that the pain is gone, we’ll just chalk it up to viral or something.  Then he said “Oh, by the way the Mets on the liver are shrinking.”  After only 3 treatments of the chemo, they are shrinking!  He was please and I was overjoyed!!  Kind of puts the pain out there as an afterthought.  Halleluiah!!

  

I’ve been working about 24 or 30 hours a week.  It feels so good, but it is stressful for me.  Don’t get me wrong, everyone at work is WONDERFUL!  It is amazing to me that after putting up with this stuff for almost a year now they are still patient with me and even making suggestions like tele-work extensions.  I am so blessed!  The stressfulness is mostly my expectations of me, and just working enough hours for a manageable paycheck.   I have been considering another alternative about work.  Pray for me as I decided whether or not to put in my disability retirement paperwork or not.  It is huge for me, on many levels.  The first is that I really do love my job.  I haven’t always been able to say that, but for the last 5 years it has been true.  I would grieve leaving work.  But my energy level seems to be such a premium to me.  When I am working 8 hours I come home and am in bed by 7:30 pm with what is sometimes severe achiness in my body.  I usually rest most of the afternoon Saturday (especially since Thursday or Friday is treatment day) and sometimes most of the day Sunday.  It doesn’t leave much time to spend with Katie, and/or Pete.  Or even leave time to do thing I want to do, like write, or go hiking.  The irony is that now is the time I want to make memories and spend every precious moment doing wonderful things.  I have been worrying about making this Christmas special and there is lots of things going on, but I spend a great deal of time worrying about having the energy to do those things.  The other issue is financial.  Disability is a huge pay cut for me.  Now this year I’ve missed a lot of time, not getting paid, and the Lord has seen me through, always providing.  I shouldn’t doubt he will provide for me, it’s just really scary.  So please pray for this decision.

 

I have another thing for prayer.  My very dear friend Patty is facing a big surgery for a mass on her kidney, early in January.  She is very faithfully brave, but I have a pretty good idea about the concern in her heart.  She is an amazing woman who faced a terrifying battle with her son 10 years ago with very serious colon cancer.  Please pray for her quick recovery.

 

I’m wishing everyone a Very Merry Christmas.  What a blessing and Joy to send that to you!  My heart is so happy to have you in my life. 

 

Love,

Lynn

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