Faithfully Fighting

Friday Morning

lynnwv | January 25, 2008 11:26

A lot has happened in the couple of days since I have written.  Let’s start with an important item.  I got my bed on Tuesday and it is fantastic!  The really hilarious thing is I have gotten more comments on the new bed than any other thing so far.  I love you guys, you get me!  Even Katie is really excited about the bed, I told her she could sleep with me tonight and this morning before school that’s all she could talk about!

 

The other important item is I have finally been able to reach out and grab God’s comforting hand.  I’m not sure if it happened when I was on my knees Weds morning before work, or before that, but sometime around then I was able to finally open my heart and let my fear be lifted by the Lord.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I still have my moments.  But I don’t feel like a big wobbly bowl of Jell-O anymore.  Most of the time I can laugh and feel joy, and rejoice, without cold fear rising in my stomach.  I am so blessed to have a patient and loving Lord who waits for me.

 

The coolest things have been blessing me.  At work yesterday, my good friend took me to lunch, and then my entire group of co-workers had cake and ice cream to send me off with good wishes and a threatening tease to return in March.  I had to fight tears at their caring generosity.  EVERYONE from everywhere is volunteering to help me if I need them and I know they really mean it (and don’t think I won’t be calling, you guys!!).  My dear friend is arranging meals for when I get home.  My cousin wants to knit chemo caps, not just for me, but for the oncology center where I’m going to be going.  Who am I to be so blessed.  Pete always says that if you don’t let people help you when you need it then you are taking away their blessing from God.  I cannot imagine that anyone is as blessed as I am at this moment in my life.

 

Today I went for pre-op and I’m all signed up for my surgery on Tuesday.  I’ve got my magical, mystical green soapy stuff to scrub with for two days, I’ve said my name, birth date and address at least 30 times, blood has been drawn, chest x-ray’s have been taken, and I’ve got a sign up sheet for a pager for my waiting room waitees.  I’m going to try and talk Pete into blogging for me for the couple of weeks I’m not able to type or write.  I’m hoping to be home this time next week, but no promises on when I’ll be touching base.

 

Thank you so much for your prayers.  I know that is one of the reasons my fears have settled.  I can actually feel you guys lifting me up to the Lord.  I will boldly ask that you keep up the good work!

 J 

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Good Luck

Brent Farley | 01/25/2008, 13:27

I am new to this site. I just started my own blog yesterday. Your blog was one of the first ones that I read and I want you to know that it touched my heart. I don’t know you so I can’t possibly tell you why you are going through all of these trials, but I can tell by reading your posts that you are a blessed person. I will be praying for you and I look forward to reading your post when you return. I pray God richly blesses you and your family.

Re: Friday Morning

Mary Zuidema | 01/25/2008, 17:46

I feel for you, Lynn, as I remember how I felt before I started chemo and yes you will like having a hat to wear though I did get a wig too. You will appreciate meals being brought to you as you won't feel like cooking or eating much and it is so helpful. I also had friends and members of the church bring meals and that was so helpful. I am so glad you have such a good support system. There is a web site that is great "chemoangels" and I had a few people send me letters and pictures of their animals and it was great. I will pray for you that everything goes well with your operation and they get as much out as they can. I will read your blog to see how it went. This is a neat idea by the way. Lots of love, Aunt Mary

Lynn's surgery

Ann Hodgman | 01/25/2008, 18:03

This is your Dad's cousin Ann writing. Your blog is a terrific way to let us know what is happening and your feelings. Our Addison (American) Baptist Church Bible study group is praying for you, all 9 of us. You are blessed and in turn you are a blessing to us with your courage and willingness to share. Tuesday you will be surrounded by prayers as will those who are caring for you. With love, Ann (Bicknell) Hodgman

Ahhh, a 'beddy" bed

Gale | 01/26/2008, 07:31

We come to appreciate the small blessings at these times--stop waiting for the "big deal." We got a new mattress last year and the bliss of sinking down into this small refuge is precious. I wear my pink ribbon pin a lot and I send up some big ones every time I see it. I'm so glad they're getting right to this surgery and so grateful for all who are upholding and blessing you. Living love letters from the Father. Gonna hug you big when I see you next. Love and prayers.

Peace to You Sister

Alice Smoot | 01/27/2008, 13:20

So much in my heart with so little space! May we all have the grace and peace and strength that you have in the face of a difficult time. We know it can only come from the Lord! May your healing time be quick and this time before you a distant memory. All my Love!

God is Faithful

Debbie | 01/28/2008, 08:17

I am so happy to hear that you have allowed the Lord to "hug" your soul and give you His peace. His peace and comfort will carry you through this. You are on our prayer list at church and there are some wonderful prayer warriors reaching the throne of God on your behalf. I know we are pretty far away but please let us know what we can do to help, even long distance :-)! We love you sooo much!
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